A sense of Being

“Nobody wants to allow you to be yourself on matters which are absolutely insignificant.” OSHO.

At first I did not get the quote. Then it struck me, who and what am I in the quiet moments before I become aware of myself.

I can remember the feeling  and time and sense of what and who I was when I was in my youth.

That sense of immortality.

At the age of 54 I have a sense of running out of time.

Who am I now in the silent moments before I become conscious about myself versus that same sense when I was 20.

At some level there is an empty space. Where there was hope and passion.

I recently read that people in their  50’s are more happy than their contemporaries at age 40.

I have tried not being busy

I have tried being busy

I have tried to balance those

I have tried figuring out the “right” way to live.

In the end I think the best quote that sums it up is the age old Zen quote.

 

Before enlightenment chop wood and carry water, after enlightenment chop wood and carry water.

 

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